I have an affair with Coffee

Today is the first time im going out with my friend Aten and Wanis..we went for movie, eating and window shopping and it was really fun.. we were searching for our site at first.. but when we lose control.. tired of searching.. we think of having fun in jaya Jusco Ipoh although the place was suck btw.. but we were having fun.. we ate at Black Canyon one of the famous coffee house in JJ or maybe in Ipoh.. But i wonder why there is no black canyon in kl..? It was fun when after 2 month didn't go out from my college in sri iskandar and having fun with the big building... aaaaah.. the coffee stud with banana and cream was really calming me.. forgot about all the problems and i was smiling while drinking it. when i was walking to the car park to change my high heel wit my selipar jepon while my friends were waiting at padini stores, i saw musyid and yana at the corner having really much fun there.. what a lovely couple.. i said hi.. and i also met miss and wan otw to the car park.. then we did window shopping and met fazu waiting for his boyfriend trying clothes in fitting room.. fazu looks really hot.. well, she is hot chick.. then we get bored so we went for mcd to get some sundae ice-cream..yummy and aten was really kind buying burgers for hanchock and hebat.. we talk and talk.. bout many topic.. things that happen now and future... it was great conversation.. it is really killing me when i know the truth....





At last.. i reconise there is no point for me to think that i am useless.. i have really great friends.. i have much a lot of experience from them.. i am very lucky..
i love me and my friends and life

Mati Hidup Kembali

Pernah rasa x perasan nak mati tapi tak nak mati..aku tengah rasa benda tu sekarang..
otak aku serabut
aku rasa nak menangis
menjerit
macam orang gila
aku tension
rasa x senang duduk nak kuar je so that stress tu hilang
tapi aku x taw ape yang nak di stress kan..
maybe dah banyak sangat ujian tuhan kasi kat aku..
aku cuba bersabar tapi aku takut aku x larat je lagi ni...
tp jangan bimbang aku rasional lagi x gila
cuma aku stress je
stress stress
rasa macam tolonglah bagi la aku gembira juga
da lama aku x gembira
sekarang ni pun aku gembira sebab aku perlu buat-buat gembira supaya aku boleh seimbangkan perasaan sedih ntah apa2 aku tu so that aku masih la dikatakan normal..

aku masih normal
cuba menjadi normal
penat penat penat penat penat

penatnya bila kita tunggu tapi still x jadi2 lg
penatnya bila kita wat keje tapi lecturer x perasan
penatnya bila kita tak boleh buat ape-ape kalau oang kutuk kita
penatnya bila kita kena tipu
penatnya bila kita tengok kawan kita tidor padahal kita tahu yang dia kena tipu
penatnya bila kita tengok kawan kita gembira time kita tengah sedih
penatnya bila kita percaya orang pastu kita kena tipu bodoh2 je dengan dia
penatnya bila kita tak dapat sms dari sesiapa dalam masa seminggu
penatnya bila kita da dilupai orang
penatnya bila kita bukan orang yang penting
penatnya bila kita bukan orang yang hebat
penatnya bila kita dengar music pastu kita menangis
penatnya bila kita tiba-tiba ketawa tapi bila kita tengok sekeliling tak de siapa pun yang kisah
penatnya...........................bila kita rasa nak mati tapi kita takut mati.....

Say No To Cuti

Gila ke? xnak la uitm kena extend.. macam mane dengan perancangan masa hadapan i.. x nak cuti.. uitm maybe extend 1 sem kerana h1n1 da makin berleluasa. sedihnya da belajar half sem da tiba2 kena cuti.. x nak...penat.. kalau cuti pun memang best coz dapat cuti.. tapi budak u lain x cuti pun .. nak hang out dengan sape nanti.. no cuti.. no cuti.. mogok lah..haha buat banner banyak2 cakap no cuti no cuti dengan cara harmoninya.. yea la kalau pakai baju hitam je tatatertib pulak kan..
i cant stand anymore.. no cuti please.. da banyak dah masa i terbuang.. nanti grad lewat pastu nak keje nak kahwin semua lewat.. nak anak lagi.. huhuhu... don't spoil my plan please.. kalau extend ni memang tua la jawabnya aku grad.. da lah tak boleh berbangga dengan umur pts aku dulu coz da banyak buang masa dulu.. ni nak extend pulak... nooooooo.....nooooooooooooooo............ataupun untuk meng'aci'kan kitorang extend la semua university.. kalah la kitorang macam ni.. even i memang compete dengan kawan-kawan i yang kat utm uia semua.. ag kat utm akan jadi qs intan kat uia jadi landscape architecture i akan jadi architect and we will team up nanti.. kalau i lambat grad macam mane our plan.... noooooo nooo nooo nooo noooo x nak cuti.. uitm tolonglah paham perasaan aku ni,.. jangan la cuti nanti lambat la i
can achieve my dream..........

Pasum, Am, and Amar..

Last sem punya cuti sem, i was very happy.. i melepak dengan one of my friend in PASUM.. Bila fikir-fikir balik, menyesalnya aku tak stay je di UM dulu. Kalau tak mesti best gila dapat lepak dengan kawan-kawan PASUM.. ingat lagi macam mane penatnya aku berjalan dengan haizum and ika dari college ungku aziz 11, sampai faculty pasum 2.. jauh sangat.. nak bandingkan aku sekarang ni dari melati ke faculty architecture memang tak payah cakap la.. dekat aje..pastu dengan abang cafe 11 tu yang macam lembut sikit memanggil no order dengan lembutnya.. pastu bilik i pula dekat dengan court futsal so memang boleh nampak dari tingkap je.. ingat lagi cam ne i ushar the people we admire most zaid time 2 la.. haha kelakar.. pastu bila otak semua da blurr tiba2 dalam pukul 2 ke 3 pagi tu kitorang main futsal dengan aimi, ramai lagi la.. baring tengok langit pastu meniru lagu snow patrol if i lay here..haha.. rindu pasum so much.. dari bilik i juga boleh nampak flyover..pastu bila balik class singgah kedai mak cik kelantan tu.. pastu bila boring naik ats cc kat depan college je.. and chroma, battle of the band, macam2 lagi.. dinner di PWTC, i miss it so much..




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Enough talking about PASUM.. really miss the people.. kalaulah ade 2nd chance to meet them again..continue.. i was having holiday with my friend am in selangor.. even we already bored because there's nothing to do. we cooked spaghetti... we... haha i slept but she cooked for air terjun trip..i pergi dengan kawan-kawan am.. it was fun.. really fun.. da lame tak mandi air terjun.. dengan konon nak belajar berenangnya.. tapi boleh timbul aje tak boleh nak bergerak. pastu plan ingat nak balik tapi tiba2 kitorang nak spend time tgk movie than drag me to hell... mane lagi nak tgk.. klcc of coz penuh so we were heading to the curve... memang pasrah abis la muka sorang2 baru pas mandi waterfall dengan mybe kaki terbawa pasirnya tibe2 kat curve pulak kan.. i jumpa ramai kawan sekolah i melepak disitu.. sangat tidak brubah..









I was celebrating am's birthday juga keesokan harinya.. di nando's kesian my friend ni kerana tak dapat celebrate with her boyfriend that day.. boyfriendnya ade keje di Miri .. so well biasa la orang tak dapat celebrate dengan boyfriend kan so banyak la kata kata ucapan awam public speaking dan segala pemikiran terhadap boyfriennya itu... haha siapa yang terpaksa mendengarnya, ? mesti lah kawan kamu yang terlampau cantik ni am.. pedih telinga.. hehe anyway, tak kisah la.. u can count on me if u have problem..

lepas makan we da jalan2 penat.. mid valley la... i was thinking about my amar and only am know the reason why i broke up with him.. im stupid.. so i think of going to sepang to met him.. by coincidence.. mengarut kan.. tapi i really miss him..n really hope to see him again not to tie thee broken relationship but only for friends i mean we are friends rite.. mengarut je
tapi bila da separuh jalan..i cakap dekat am.. am this is useless.. jom la pegi tempat lain..dengan nada sedih.. so we were heading to putrajaya.. and putrajaya pula is tempat i dating dengan him time sekolah-sekolah dulu.. kelakarlah.. form 4 untill i grad from pasum.. lame tu..

masa nak balik seperti biasa singgah ke tesco membeli food to eat.. ade lah negro mengorat am.. haha am kan terubat hati da orang negro tu da mengorat.. at least celebrate la gn negro 2.. haha
tapi agak takut la.. bnila ktorang pergi bahagian sayur dia ikut kitorang cari mayo dia ikut ikuuuut je da l la tinggi besar gatal pulak tu... yuck.. itu taste am ..haha
kidding babe..












apa-apa pun i missssss pasum.. i missss am... i misss amar and i love my life.........